Whats good? I'm not really feeling so good about myself or my actions right about now. This week has turned out to be a good and bad week and it is only Wednesday. I mentioned to you guys a few weeks back that I had to make a harsh decision and alleviate some friendships, well as you know I did just that, and for good cause. I would like to believe that it was best for all parties involved, but turns out that I really hurt and disappointed one of the brothas (Michael), see Michael and I were kinda close, but I didn't tell him to much because of his big mouth (he will tell it all in the name of love). I received two very disturbing emails from him this week, in one email he assured me that "he wish he never encountered me." The brotha is slandering me all over town. Oh well!
Long story short, I learned today that not only is he a recovering alcoholic, drug user and sex addict, but also his health has been compromised as a result, that would explain the haggard look and mental issues. Don't get me wrong the brotha is in school, working and doing good things in the community. I've had the opportunity to work with him on various projects, but a month ago he snapped at me for the third time and that was it, I don't tolerate bullshit from just anybody. We got along famously for a while, but I noticed how strange he was acting and always telling me something about one person or another. Now I find out that he is sick. I feel bad because I should have been nicer and maybe tried to be his friend, but he is so shady and not trust worthy I couldn't continue socializing with him. Now I feel sad because I may have ended the friendship without enough thought and soon he could be gone.
On a good note, I'm looking forward to doing some good works this summer even if I'm not chosen to go to Haiti with the group from Wisconsin. School ends next month and I will have the whole summer out! Not all that great, because I will still need to take on part time work. I've also got my eye on a real cutie!
4 comments:
Wow! You have a lot going on, man. It's an all too often occurance within out world for friends to fall out. It is also all too often that we find out someone we thought we knew was nothing more than a stranger. Sometimes its okay to say good-bye and good ridence (sp?).
Enjoy the summer! You deserve it and keep us all updated on this new prospect. We want all of the sorid details!
Sick or no sick, that's no excuse to remain friends. If you think that staying friends will be detrimental to you then don't worry about it and keep going. If you think you've made a mistake by breaking the the relationship, well you're both still alive and can easily go back and discuss your differences and your needs with him as well as the the things that made you become friends in the first place.
I'll tell you this, regardless of health issues if a person is an ass hole then they need to be cut. I don't think you should feel bad or regret your decision.
I know how you feel and it is not easy to end a friendship when you find out a friend is ill but...
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