How is it possible that at one moment everything in your world is perfect then all of a sudden nothing appears to be right? Change doesn't always come easy in fact it doesn't come easy at all, but I am a firm believer that no more than we can bear will be placed upon us. I have had the worst couple of months a man could imagine, but still I push on and try not to look back, because looking back one might go back.
I was placed on administrative leave (with pay) more than two weeks ago and this is not exactly a good feeling and I am beginning to think that I may be forced out once I do return, and there is no doubt I will be reassigned and that is fine with me I could use the change besides I have no interest working in the same department or with the personnel from my old division especially with my boss, he and I do not get along at all never had he has held a grudge against me from day one when he took my former boss's job, as you may remember my former boss and I were friends, he got caught up in that firing and hiring bullshit nearly a year ago, now it is round two!
I have been busy packing up the condo, good thing it was lease with option to buy otherwise a brotha would be stuck with it! The property market is not exactly blooming. I have decided to move into an apartment being that the memories in this place are to much to deal with on a daily basis, not to mention I am not very fond of: Madison and if it wasn't for my job I would have been gone. Of course a brotha has been searching for something different, remember about a year or so ago I spoke about returning to the classroom as a student not a teacher this may very well be the perfect opportunity.
I spoke with both Jeff and Ke about my situation and both are very supportive, in fact Ke cried over the phone two nights in a row (I was thinking to myself that he was crying simply because he can't get money from me to pay his bills anymore if I am not working) he was relived when I told him I still get my paycheck. I could feel him smile from cheek to cheek. He hasn't ask for much in the past month he has been doing okay on his first year teachers salary.
Jeff finally slowed down and for good reason he keeps finding the worst men this town has to offer, I have tried to explain to him that it just isn't enough gay black men here and that he needs to continue going to Chicago or Milwaukee for trade, this town has some good looking men, but their minds are not right. There isn't even a Black gay bar here and the white children to not appreciate the Black children venturing into the white bars, Milwaukee has a few all Black and you know Chicago has everything a brotha is looking for, in fact I am willing to go over with him this weekend and spend the night that way he can have trade at the hotel (his room of course) why I head to the Southside to catch a Strip Show (STR8)!
5 comments:
Sorry things aren't going so well..they will get better and I hoope the changes you are going through bring you happiness in the end.
this change thing is something else huh?
Ok my eyes had to roll over the lines about you paying Ke's bills three times!! I hope you are getting a back blown out or something. Wow!!
But I am sorry to hear about your troubles. Trust and believe when I say that God is something when it comes to moving mountains. Sometimes we are those mountains. It took an act of God to push me to leave the job I hated and now I am doing so much better and am so much happier. Just a testimony to trust and believe that no matter what, you are living according to his plan. Stay strong brother!!
Somehow I always thought that this job was your Plan B, the job you did because you weren't doing the one that made you happy. This one just paid the bills.
Use this time to look for you and find out what your needs are, the ones that will make you live and not just pay the rent.
D-Place: Thankz for kind words,I am certain the changes will bring me joy.
TheGay-Keeper: I deal with change so much that I have adopted to it well. Thankz for stopping by.
BPS 3.0(Dallas): Okay stop rolling your eyes, that statement I made about paying Ke bills actually I pay Mastercard so that he can build his credit history up even though he just about jacked mine up. He pays me back most of the time, oh yeah I have been none to trick with him, LMAO! We are just friends now.
BPS 3.0 you are absolutely right about not being able to move mountains when we don't regonize that we are often that mountain.
Thanks for the kind words, and yes I am oh so looking forward to the new changes... Progress.
Curious: hey man thanks for always lifting a brotha's spirits and yes I have been trying to get out of this job for a minute, my heart is in outreach and socialwork.
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